i've had it.

i read my email and i got an email from amy.. she was talking to zen (the ics worker) and asked him if the people at the number we called to ask about insurance said how long it'd take for my insurance to kick in. i KNOW she asked him this question on the phone during our last ics meeting and he told her what they told him (that it'd kick in within 24 hrs. and the waiver services could take 3-4 months to kick in).. HOWEVER- that'd totally defeat the purpose of her dragging her feet by asking questions she ALREADY ASKED, so it takes longer and i'll miss the deadline. IF i happen to miss this opportunity at this apartment, i'm gonna promise you that i WILL be switching banks so i have a different trustee. i've also told my cousin joe (the ONLY cousin who REALLY cares about me because he supports MY goals and choices) and he said i should file a complaint and he asked which bank she works at. stop trying to distract me, so i miss the deadline because YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO YOUR FUCKIN JOB PROPERLY. i suppose i could take advantage of people underestimating my intelligence and pull some shit under your noses.. amanda and amy- since you both seem to think you're smarter than me and shut down all of my goals and aspirations JUST for your convenience so YOU DON'T HAVE TO SHOW CONCERN AT ALL AND TO MAKE MY SITUATION IN LIFE EASIER FOR YOU (TOTALLY IGNORING THE FACT THAT THIS IS MY LIFE- NOT WHATEVER'S MORE CONVENIENT AND BENEFICIAL TO YOU OR TO MAKE ME INTO A MINI-TRACY TO MAKE THINGS EASIER FOR US (amanda and my mom) IN LIFE BECAUSE SHE DOESN'T CARE ABOUT ANYTHING BUT HER DAMN DOGS, SMOKING CIGARETTES, AND DRINKING PEPSI). another reason why i want to get the hell outta this stupid state because you're both entitled pretentious pricks who act like you're concerned about me just to make yourselves look good when it benefits you. drop the bullshit before i DROP BOTH OF YOU. i register for massachusetts housing back in 2022 and i was told my name would come up in like 10 years- NOW THAT IT COMES UP.. NO ONE WANTS TO DO THEIR DAMN JOBS AND ASSIST ME WITH TAKING THE OPPORTUNITY. AMY CLAIMS, "OH YOU JUST APPLIED TO THIS A FEW MONTHS AGO? WE CAN JUST REJECT IT AND WAIT 3-5 YEARS!" no.. this is MY life- NOT WHATEVER IS MORE CONVENIENT FOR YOU AND PEOPLE WHO ARE TOO ENTITLED AND BUSY TO CARE ABOUT WHAT I WANT'S LIFE. I'LL BE FORTY FUCKIN YEARS OLD IN JULY AND I HAVEN'T EVEN GOT MARRIED OR HAD KIDS YET. so you have the opportunity to actually do your job CORRECTLY and make sure i have a travel pca along with airline tickets by friday (when the deadline was pushed back to) or i'm getting a new bank to handle my trust and/or speaking to your supervisor- which brian always told me that he was the supervisor when i asked him for his supervisor's #.. so i could try to contact brian or the bank itself and figure it out. my cousin joe would help me because he actually cares about me- UNLIKE THE REST OF MY SELFISH FAMILY MEMBERS.